We will miss you, Paul

Sven Longshanks sent me an email on November 1st titled 'Paul', in which he kindly informed me that he had second-hand information, but he was pretty confident in it, that Paul Hickman had died. He thought I should know and when he got confirmation of it, and the circumstances, he would let me know. I was shocked and saddened by this news, and didn't want to report anything about it until some confirmation came. A few times I did a search on Paul's name, but nothing came up. Until today. Several sites have posted the information, so now it is a fact.

Paul and I were good friends. This started before he became a host on The White Network. We kept in touch after that mainly via Skype. Our last skype conversation was on Sept 18 – he sent me a photographic copy of a notification he had received from the court detailing the final charge against him. On it, he was checked off as White European. It read:

You are charged with the following offence(s): You do not have to say anything, but do not mention NOW something which you later rely on in Court. Anything you do say can be used against you.

1. PUB6111 – Possess written material which is threatening abusive/insulting to stir up racial hatred.

   On 17/5/16 (May 2016) at Birmingham in the County of West Midlands had in your possession written material … namely multiple copies of two national action leaflets/posters taken from exhibits LJ/8 and LJ/15, which was threatening, abusive or insulting with a view to it being displayed by yourself or another intending thereby to stir up racial hatred or, having regard to all the circumstances, whereby racial hatred was likely to be stirred up.

   Contrary to sections 23(1) and 27(3) of the Public Order Act 1986.

REPLY: The defendant has made no reply to this charge

We had a short back and forth about it at that time (of course, we had talked about it before that) during which he said: “White people are like sheep surrounded by wolves. My friend reckons the Germans still have something in them and will rise up eventually. Hope he's right.” I took this that he (and his friend) was losing hope in the British. No wonder! … just think of all this ruination of his life for possessing leaflets from the National Action campaign !! How more ridiculous can it get?

The last skype message I received from him was on Oct. 9. In neither of these was there anything that would warn that such an outcome was pending. He had previously expressed the belief that it was very possible he would not be found guilty and would not face any jail time—which could be why the system kept putting it off, looking to find more on him.

It is being said that Paul took his own life; if so, it could have been accidental. I am aware of a problem he had in his life, other than being an active White Nationalist in a society that had outlawed racism. So if he did, it was because he no longer saw his life as salvable. Paul was intelligent, talented and good-looking, as alcoholics so often are. He wanted to help his race and his nation. He also hoped to form a family. His political activism caused him to lose his job in his chosen field a second time, and now his prospects looked increasingly hopeless.

I'm coming out with this not to cast a bad light on a good White Nationalist man whose death I mourn (and who did try some treatment programs), but because alcoholism is, in my opinion, the worst affliction of our people and causes many problems and failures which could be avoided. We might have more Adolf Hitlers if we banned alcohol from our nations. It is a drug that for some people is fatal. The only effective treatment for alcohol-caused disabilities, for both the alcoholic and the co-dependent “enabler” in the family and among friends, is to come out of the entrenched denial pattern that holds it all in place. This is where the first and greatest resistance is, and that is a hump that is hard to get over. Even once you do, it is a lifetime enterprise to keep from falling back, but it does get easier. As Donald Trump has so wisely said: The best thing is to never have the first drink—especially if you know it is in your family.

The best program by far for alcohol addiction is AA (Alcoholics Annonymous). Any other programs that work are copied on that one. Alcoholics never like it at first because of the need to plead helplessness and a dependence on a Higher Power. That Higher Power can be anything you want it to be. And every person already addicted to alcohol IS helpless in the face of it. So it's just admitting the truth of your situation, and that is the healing power.

So Paul finally went to an AA meeting and told me he liked it! And said he would go back; they had several a week. I was happy thinking he was in good hands, but I found out from him later that he didn't go back. He instead enrolled in a different program that substituted some other substance for alcohol and slowly weaned him off. When he successfully completed that program, he went right back to drinking. He told me in all sincerity that he “had to have it”—he couldn't get through the night without it. He wanted me to understand. I did but I knew it would not work out like he said. Now he's dead. This is what Albion has done to its son. He was a sweet, sweet son, as you can see from his picture above. He was also a willing and ready soldier in the battle. He lived with his father for a time and cared for him. He liked taking care of people.

Forgive me, Paul, for telling this much about your struggle, but perhaps doing so is more useful to the brothers and sisters you served than your radio podcasts. I think yours is the lesson we really need to learn. You are loved, and we are sorry you're gone from us.

I did several programs with Paul as guest which I have just reinstated on this website: here, here, here, here and here.